I used to think the moon was such a constant thing,
But tonight she is moving all through the sky looking as unstable as I feel.
There was another that I used to believe was a constant in my life,
That niave delusion was shattered tonight.
Like a fool I built my emotional foundation on that “knowledge”
And now I must pick up the pieces of it all.
I must face my daughter and admit to my foolishness so that she can be wiser than I.
I must rebuilt my foundation brick by brick and sometimes pebble by pebble or just by layers of dust.
I must learn to be happy with my feet on the ground never again to be raised on pedestals in the sky.
I must learn to face the darkness alone or find some other source of light.
I must learn to create my own wind if I ever again wish to fly
Never again to trust the wind of others.
I must learn how to close my heart, sew it up tight
Never allow it to again leave my chest
Even a year of delight is not worth the lifetime of pain to follow
I must accept that I no longer have a best friend, I must accept that part of my life as over.
I must accept my own flaws, faults and failures
And know that they are mine alone, never again to be argued away
I must accept that parts of me that were growing in the light of virtual love,
Must be again shut in the dark to die.
I must accept my mask again, never again to be removed.
I must weld it to me and somehow once again learn to love it.
I must accept my lesson as learned and somehow learn to let it go and move on while tears run like rivers down my face.
jaded1thoughts 
August 18, 2014 at 6:17 am
That is total crap I love you and will always love my best friend,things aren’t what they seem you jump so fast and never give people a chance to explain you throw me like a yo-yo and then iggy me not letting me talk to you Jenny! I am your friend on my side I was and am always your friend,you need to cool you jets and talk to me. I never iggied you,you don’t need a mask Hun you need to talk and understand nothing was done to you. You told me to stay a friend then you leave totally come Jenny and talk to me! Please I hate to see you hurting and I’m sorry if I hurt you! I never lied to you you are very awesome you just need a nudge to see it!